I fucked up.

I'm a beginner wrestler and have been wrestling for 4 months now and i thought I was ready for my first tournament knowing damn well I was gonna get absolutely destroyed.

And I was getting destroyed until I tried to go for a suplex-like throw but I couldn't quite get the technique right so I threw him on his side, which he responded to by posting his hand on the mat which effectively snapped his elbow and bent his elbow joint the exact opposite direction, the combined sound of the elbow and the blood curdling scream that came from this guys mouth is still replaying in my head and that sinking feeling hasn't left me since.

I had been training martial arts my entire life and the closest I got to doing that much harm was breaking a nose in kickboxing but this was something else that I don't know how to explain, I feel as if this has affected me mentally alot and I want to know if this is a common occurrence or is wrestling just not for me?