What is voidpunk to you?

For the last year or so, I've grown to have issues with the idea of being "a person." It feels like I've tried to fill a balloon with water. It's expanded and stretched, but the water keeps coming and it's about to pop. It feels like the concept of being a person will make me pop. The things humans have to do in the world feels so..... structured? Go to school, graduate, get a job, work 30-50 years of your life, actually get to enjoy 5 or 10 years and then spend the rest needing to be taken care of. I hate it, I hate it with a passion. Why? Why can't I let my soul explore the realm we live in? Why can I not I feel the sky, why can I not dive to the deepest part of the oceans and why must I be placed into the same sorting boxes that everyone is? It feels sometimes like I'm nothing but parts connected toghther and trying to be a whole. I don't hate life or anything, I just feel like there's so much more to it. I have friends who I love, I express myself with my writings it just feels like there's so much more potential life could have without the limits of the human body. Is this how you feel too? Is this why you came to this community? Or am I just weird and this has nothing to do with voidpunk?

Thank you for your time