Belt Lipectomy tomorrow

I'm terrified.

I've had symptoms of a UTI and a tummy ache for the last couple days, told my surgeon but he isn't worried.

My heart is beating out of my chest, I've been extremely weepy and nervous. I don't have kids or anything, got to a bad weight due to poor lifestyle choices and now also feeling extremely scared that I will die tomorrow because of a lifetime of bad decisions. Feel guilty about the amount of money I'm spending to correct my own mistakes. If I'd been responsible, these would be my savings. Not all my family is supportive of my going down the surgical route, so have told them I'm going on a quick trip.

I am so scared of becoming a statistic. I don't want to leave my family behind. I want to be happy and make them proud. I want to do all the things my self confidence has stopped me from doing, be normal.

I am so so scared. Need some encouragement, community. I am really spiraling.