TIFU by handling catcallers a little to well
I want to prefix this that i may ramble a little cus i feel really bad about it. So. Yesterday I went on a date with a guy I matched on tinder. The place we were supposed to meet was at this historical cemetary in our country's capitol we both lived in. It was pretty far from my house and it required me to go through the city center. A hellish place. Im a really feminine guy with a Gothic style, very hard to miss and confuse for anyone else. Especially that I hide under an umbrella when its sunny. As you may assume I tend to get catcalled pretty often and on my way i was catcalled like 3 times. I wear ear buds to not even think about the shouts and wistles. So in the center i was switching buses and decided to visit one of the small grocery shops for cold water. Under that store there was few hobos siting on the benches which i tried to ignore cus ALL of them were staring, but also there was this one foraigner who looked VERY pleased to see me and said something to me (earbuds in didn't cared what he wanted to say). I just entered the shop and he didn't followed me in. When i left he tried to approach me but i'm a fast walker and when he was shouting something and touched my shoulder i just pushed the hand off without even looking at him and just Walked off. When i arrived at the spot i Opened tinder and he was gone. The match. The Conversation. Nothing. Not even a text. Ofc i was sad. The guy seemed nice and hot. But then i started thinking and it downed on me. There is a chance the catcaller was my date... I didnt looked at him. His tinder profile Had only one photo of his face which was blured. It might have been him. But what could he be doing under that specific store (especially that there are like 6 more of that line of shops in a VERY close vicinity) when i was already running late The city center is a crazy busy area so what are the chances of him being there?! If this was really him i rejected him in a really bad way PUBLICALLY but also didn't say hi or anything. If that was really him it must have hurt him a lot... If this was a catcaller and i was just ditched i dont care happens. But IF. I might have done something really fucked up. I wish i could just apologise to him but he didn't even texted me after that. Just blocked me. So he maybe just ditched me... I would feel better knowing that.
But he was right... The place was beautiful...
TL;DR: I got so used to catcaller that i maybe have run into my date and thought it was just another catcaller. I feel bad and can't even confirm my suspicions and apologise.