What is your Long Dark Embarrassing Admission?

As it says in the title, I'll start:

I can't kill rabbits.

I literally can't. I killed one once when I first played and it broke me. I've tried to since then, stunning them with rocks, but I always set it free. I played on Pilgrim when I started out, have been doing multiple Voyager runs now, and am getting ready to start Stalker once I finish my most recent Voyager run. I know I'll have to get rabbits eventually to stay alive in Stalker, but I very much dread it.