help me!!!

i relapsed last night, after 2 months of being clean. i hit baby beans and this is the deepest i’ve ever done.

i’ve been very paranoid about getting infections or getting sepsis.. i reused an old blade, did not clean it or wash my hands. i’ve been washing the wound and bandaging it though.

so far, it hasn’t scabbed and it hurts a lot!! will i be okay?