Idk if im a bad person

(I’ve never used reddit before but I was wondering what other peoples opinions are on how i think because my friends say they can’t relate.)

I’ve never really been into dating or anything like that my whole life but i do hope i can find someone i love one day if it’s possible for me. I noticed kind of recently though that the only people i have been interested in slightly are people who could probably not care at all for me. I used to always think i wanted to someone to want me really bad and chase after me but whenever it happens i kind of get the ick really bad. That’s not really that crazy but i realized that the people i’m usually interested in not only don’t really care for me but are in relationships. I know it’s not a “you want something you can’t have” situation but more of a “i want to see how much i can make this person want me even though their not available”. i’m in this situation right now where this guy i know just got into a relationship and before i wasn’t really interested but now i want to just see if i can get him. he’s not interesting to me physically or emotionally at all and i would probably just ghost him like i’ve done multiple times before with others. i’m scared that i would do something bad if one of my friends or close ones gets into a relationship. If this makes sense at all does anyone else relate?