was this assault too

i filed a police report at the start of the month 11.5 months after the man i was seeing at the time started to put his penis in my body in a place that we never discussed or even mentioned in passing beforehand. i was facing away from him and he was restraining me so i couldn't stop him before he started. i turned around and said "okay okay okay", he tried to convince me that it would be easier if i let him do that since it was my first time. i knew that was not true. there was no way he could have done what he wanted to do without causing me physical harm. and he tried to tell me it would be less painful than what he was already doing. i know that was all wrong and it was assault. i did not know that until very recently.

since i didn't understand that what he had done to me was wrong, i continued to have vaginal sex with him. close to him being done, he started to hurt me. i pushed against him, i made noises and facial expressions to express that i was in pain. but i didn't tell him. i didn't tell him to stop. and i didn't try harder to make him stop. afterwards, he laughed at me for bleeding.

in my relationship with this man, it was my first nature to make excuses for him. i need to know objectively if this part of that night was assault also or not. thank you for reading and responding.