No "reason" just decided

Anybody have an easy pregnancy and straightforward delivery, and simply decide to be OAD?

Before having my boy I decided OAD, and everything was funky and groovy. There was no major underlying reason (I guess money and time featured...) I suppose I feel like in a different reality I'd have liked to have more, but in this one I can't.

Not fencesitting because this is the best decision for my family, but a bit sad (yet also incredibly chuffed at my brilliant life)

Anyone else feel this way? How do you deal?