Life has a way

Of really giving a nice "fuck you"

I've been trying to better my life, get shit together. I own a business and owe my landlords rent (not on bad terms, just a brand new business and they were understanding about needing time).

Money I was expecting got delayed. Landlords are no longer super chill (understandably), I'm still in the early phases of trying to fix my past mistakes and get my life in order so my credit isn't the best, and I've put absolutely everything into the business.

But now I need to pay the current and past rent like today. And it's not even that I have no one I could ask, but no one I've asked that WOULD lend me the money has it, and not in a bs I would if I could, like very valid and visible reasons that they just don't.

So now WTF do I do? I try to do better and get shit in order. One unexpected event and everything goes to shit. I'm trying so hard not to give up but I'm literally out of options and am in like the last few hours of being able to fix this. Aside from this everything else seems to be getting better though..

But with this, will be a domino effect of everything I've built up falling apart. Not just being dramatic, like I will lose my business, which will cause an insane amount of fallout..

I'm fucked.