I don’t want to be a nurse anymore

I’m coming up to 5 years as a nurse now. I’ve been traveling the last 3 years. Most of it has been great but my last contract took me out.. the worst experience ever.

I took time off work between December & January because I had surgery. I’m starting a new travel contract today and I can’t stop crying. I thought having 2 months off work would help me reset and remind me why I wanted to be a nurse in the first place but I’ve just been having panic attacks since I signed my contract. I fee stuck. I want to work at a clinic but traveling pays the bills. I feel like a cry baby and unappreciative. This just brings me back to when I was crying before every shift at my last contract. I’m already thinking of what I’ll do after these 13 weeks. I want out but I don’t know what to do.