30 days a letter to myself!!

Alhumdulillah (All praise to God) I have made it 30 + days. Going to this vacation/trip, really forced me to do this. I’m 2 hours away from going back to my original environment (Canada). I need to be very careful over the next few weeks. As a lot of things will trigger you to smoke. I need to stay committed to being sober, FOR LIFE. Always keep the lion analogy in your mind. NOOO, you can’t just smoke 1 more time. “1 more time” will lead to a 6 + month relapse/depression/and sadness. Stay away from all people you use to smoke with Alhumdulillah (all praise to God) Allah (God) has blessed me with such a loving wife. She is amazing. I need to do this first and foremost for Allah (God), but I also owe it to my wife and our future together. JUST BECAUSE YOU QUIT WEED, DOESNT MEAN LIFE WILL BE EASY. IT JUST MEANS YOU HAVE TO FACE YOUR EMOTIONS/DEMONS HEAD ON NOW. ITS OKAY TO FEEL OUT YOUR EMOTIONS, THIS IS HOW YOU GROW. Go back with a new mindset, pray more, pray on time, go to the mosque, give more charity, memorize Quran, be more grateful, be more sincere. Alhumdulillah for everything. Just wat to say lastly be proud of yourself G :) :)