Need advice

Hi I’m married I’m 20 and hiv me and my husband we are gay have been married for 3 years however when we fight he brings up me being hiv poz telling me I’m dirty that I lied to him about my status saying he’s scared of my blood and it really effects my self esteem I asked him and he says he just says it to make me sad ? Do you guys think he means all the mean things he says ?