Struggling with heterosexuality through transgender masturbation/sex

Please help!

I’m 100% straight guy, I don’t even like to watch dudes in porn videos, BUT

it just so happens that a while ago I tried experimenting with unknown territory, started paying more attention to transgender prostitutes on the street, then it progressed to one time getting a bj from one of them,

THEN one time in one of those ventures the transgender really insisted on riding me on a motel - at the time I thought wrong of it but did it anyway- … since then I became discussed with myself (with all due respect, I don’t mean to offend anyone)

Nonetheless, I kinda got into it and procured one more time a trans for sex…

The things is, masturbating to transgenders became more and more frequent and EVERY SINGLE TIME I felt even more discussed for liking “women with penis”.

The way I was educated throughout my life I always made fun of those types of things, and PLEASE don’t get me wrong I respect all of you it’s just that I cannot keep on “liking it” cause whenever I finish masturbating or having sex with trans I feel sick to my stomach and also ashamed of myself…

I WOULD BEG any of you FOR ANY ADVICE on how to stop “liking it” and doing stuff I’m doing because like I said, I COULD NOT wrap my head around making out with a dude let alone having sex with one!

The trans I like most are the ones more physically like a woman, more feminine, but there’s something about fucking that woman that has a dick that turns me on so much…

Please! Any advice would be gold for me! I MUST STOP THIS HABIT

**Also, I apologize if any of this sounded offensive, that was not the intention at all!!