I love them, but idk anymore

Big h3 fan, stayed after frenemies and love it so much. Lately my enjoyment level vs anxiety level while watching is very mismatched. I loved hasan, now im conflicted and reasonably so, this is all just so messy :( life is like that, i get it, but damn. Am i the only one? Love the crew always, love my show, but somehow it is no longer my comfort show and I have to work myself up to watch now, which makes me sad.