GETTING MY SHIT BACK UP!!!

I used to be an ambitious man before 3 years was grinding my ass off was fighting porn addiction was reading good stuff and meditating, but I don't know something happened lately and I forgot everything I got succumbed into porn lately and am addicted to smoking.

I never realized what situation I brought myself into till today. Every time I used to do something that kills my soul my mind says it's okay everybody does it, it's normal.

My mind is not what it was sometimes back I liked art and artistic thoughts now all my mind want is reckless scrolling and cheap dopamine my mind is so rotted that I do not remember when the last time was when i watched a complete movie and when did I had a meal without any YouTube video.

THINGS I AM GOING TO DO:

GOING TO QUIT CIGRATTES COLD TURKEY.

it's going to be tough as I am heavy smoker smoking 15 sticks a day but this shit is done.

MEDITATION

I still remember that what peace can meditation bring into life it's like a feeling a moment of saint like feel in midst of war.

WAKING UP EARLY AND CUTTING SCREEN TIME.

Screen time and sleeplessness has direct relations

I pray and hope that I LIVE ABOVE MY DEMONS