How do you explain how you’re feeling to others?

I try to explain to non fed employees how this is all making me feel and I can’t find the words. None seem to fit. Angry. Scared. Bewildered. Shocked. Sick. In a lucid nightmare. None of the words I use feel right.

As a lawyer, I’m supposed to be good with words. And I’m just … at a total loss. I can’t even introspect and find the right words/description.