Is it just me? Life after leaving the organization

Leaving the organization has been my goal since 2020. Now, I'm proud to say that I have finally faded. No one from the organization tried to bother me anymore. However, it's always a struggle for me to find a reason to live. I don't know. I have been keeping myself busy to distract myself, but at the end of the day, I just find myself not having the will to live.

Maybe it's because, in the organization, we are programmed to make Jehovah happy every day and now I don't know anymore. I don't know what's my purpose.

How about you guys? How did you manage to find your purpose after you left the organization?