What was your lowest point that made you realize you needed help

Couldn’t go to school without becoming violently ill from anxiety to the point i gagged and retched and could hardly tolerate food. I was terrified of going outside and abused zofran heavily. Ended up in the hospital. Soon escalated to the point I refused to try any new medications due to the fears of becoming nauseous, agoraphobia was really bad again. Was then told I had OCD and she begged me to try my new medication which has drastically changed my life for the better