Am I a bad aide?

I have been a aide for 6 months going on 7 soon. I have always struggled feeling confident in my role. I'm not a very loud or confrontational type of person, I try to stay quiet plus be nice and respectful to people. I dont particularly like what I do, but it's better than anything else I've ever done and I feel fulfilled sometimes.

I just feel like I ask for help too much. I'm always the smallest and youngest aide, I look and sound like a child. I can't lift on a lot of these heavy people, and many residents don't like to listen to me because they see me as less so I get assistance. And some aides don't like to help, or they help me and then are mad I need it.

So am I a bad aide? I only need help sometimes if they're heavy, violent, or dont want to listen, or if I am unsure what to do with a particular scenario.

But otherwise I can do the skills part of my job.

I guess I just feel bad because today there was only 2 aides on the heaviest hall with a lot of big and poopy people. I'm the youngest and newest aide to this particular facility. Never worked this hall at all before, and I felt like I was constantly working the whole time even with help.

I want to be a nurse someday, so maybe I'm being hard on myself too much?

Just had a long and hard day.