Currently waiting to be taken back for my bisalp and I’m freaking out

I’ve never wanted kids, my fiancé never wanted kids and we’re confident in our decision. But tell me why when i started changing into that hospital gown i started to want to cry because this decision is permanent. I know how i feel and what i want but im having some really wild emotions.

Update: everything went really well!! So my anxiety was definitely pre surgery jitters because all I feel now was relief. I don’t feel any pain just yet (pain meds, I expect that to change lol), just very sleepy. I absolutely made the right decision. Thank you so much everyone for your support!