I think I'm legitimately having a mental breakdown?

Everything is terrible. Every day they sign a law that works at ripping my kid's futures away. The headlines at my 'news hour' are gut-wrenching at best.

And yet, I'm supposed to just go on as if nothing is happening?

Like what the fuck?

What the actual fuck?

I keep asking my husband to commiserate with me, but he's a white male, and while I think he cares, he just acts like he doesn't care? I get 2 seconds and he's back laughing at his screen. Like he's somehow helpless in making decisions to keep our kids safe?

Everything isn't fine, but I have to hold it together for my little people who don't need to stress over the state of things. But I'm barely making it, so my temper is short, and I know they see that I'm just annoyed constantly.

And don't fucking tell me to breathe.

Breathing doesn't fucking solve this shit. Ignoring it makes shit worse.

This is not okay, and my reaction is normal. Why are we not making this reaction *normal*?

Why do we have to pretend it's fine?