Books for people healing from trauma of mentally ill parents, getting over the fear of becoming a parent myself

So this is the first time i try to open up a little about this subject online and i need some help from expert readers since i’m not one lol

i have lived with a schizophrenic mother for a period of my life and like you’d guess it had some effect on my life and choices. I feared and hated the idea of having children because of it but i’m having a change of heart recently

I would like to read some books to help me make peace with the idea and with the past