Am I making motherhood harder than it should be?

Don’t get me wrong I love my baby and I do love being a mom but I’ve certainly found it difficult to adjust and I really thought I’d get along a bit better having worked with kids in childcare for years! It’s definitely triggered some past mental health struggles, at the beginning I was having panic attacks and now some days I’m really low and just don’t want to do the day..

Apart from that I’m confident in baby care and my baby is pretty chilled really 💕

But the other day I was speaking to a mum who has a baby a month younger than mine- hers is 6 months and she’s already a month pregnant with her second- planned. I’m so happy for her but am I doing something wrong to make motherhood harder on myself because I cannot fathom being pregnant again and having another baby when my baby is so dependent.

I’d like to add: she always has makeup on, her nails done etc. I don’t know how she’s even affording it on mat leave?! or has the time.