Any experience with dentransitioning for parents’ sake?

Hi. My parents found out I was taking HRT and it was a shock to them. At first they threatened to disown me and kill me. Now they say they can't live knowing what I'm condemning myself to and will kill themselves if I continue. They can't eat or sleep. I'm not the kindest person in the world and at first I felt incredibly disgusted that my parents wanted to kill me. But when I saw their faces on the phone (I'm an immigrant living in Finland so I don't see my parents very often), I felt incredibly ashamed.

My Trans transition is literally killing them. I'm thinking of stopping taking the hormones (or rather not ordering new ones, I still haven't been able to throw out the hormones and am still taking them). In any case, I understand that I need to stop. My parents even found a conversion therapist from Russia for me and are paying him a lot of money by Russian standards. More than 100 euros for a video call. I don't want this to be for nothing, but I'm not sure I can really do a detransition after trying hormones.