Now what?

Several of you have taken the time to talk to me and give me some really great advice, so thank you so much for that!

I also spoke to a lovely person at the national abuse line who really helped me see how bad things really are. I knew that things were bad, and this wasn't normal, but until I really said it, out loud, I don't think I've ever let myself see it for what it was.

That being said, now what? Like what do I do? I feel so much better right now, and empowered, but then reality sets in. He's going to get off of work, and we're in the middle of our cycle where he's angry and standoffish, and all of the sudden I'm going to be exactly who I always am, and feel how I always do, be put down and belittled, and anxious for the remainder of the night - and tomorrow he has the day off.

My situation hasn't changed, he's still got control over finances, the car, literally everything, so even if I were to come up with a plan to get out, I can't exactly execute anything for a while, so how do you survive this part? How do you not let it break you even more? How do you just get through your day to day now knowing you have to leave but can't yet?