i’m so done

i wish i could be truly suicidal because it would make things so much easier. but i can’t because i love my partner and don’t want to make him suffer

on the other hand ive been unemployed for months (and denied unemployment benefits) and im a trans person living in the us. living feels impossible right now.

i don’t have any specific plans but if something happens to me (car accident or some other “disaster”) it would be a relief