my expirience with crystal meth (psychosis)

        Had my first bump in december, honestly i didnt like it so i didnt touch it again untill 8 days ago.

        Compared to the first batch this stuff was amazing... it Burned so much and made your eyes tear, instant high, instant euphoria. The problem was my first bag was free beause i got sold some bs back in december so i was open to grabbing it, as lately my tolerance to adhd medication has gotten out of hand.(full 50mg concerta script-42 hours, 500mg vyvanse-44 hours, 20 20mg addys-a day and a half) 


        This crystal batch had me a slave instantly and before i even could comprehend i picked up an 8 ball, maybe a day or 2 later. I noticed myself changing on the drug completely. Yeah i was nice and the cleanest version of myself, but my morals completly went out the window as i found myself doing trashy things to earn money...(honerable mention the first night i did lsd,molly,meth, and ritalin together)

        At around day 3 or 4 i was already railing 100mg+ lines and being very dumb not caring how high i was and found by this point the drug has totally consumed me, and the only sleep i was getting was around 9 hours thru the whole thing assisted by xanax. I found myself going to school strung i was calling out of work to go get money other ways... and flat out quit my job a day later

(another honerable mention oxy+meth)

        Day 5 was very wierd for me because i started to notice i was neglecting everything exept meth, not putting on deoderant etc things i do routinely. i noticed i was jumpy and at this point and just walking outside i was hearing footsteps that werent there and looking behind my shoulder 24/7(only in the dark) i had over amped that night with two 100mg lines back to back and within 4 hours i was asleep for 3hrs.

       On day 6 (3 am or 4am) I find myself rationing that oh i had some sleep im good to dose... However this was a mistake, i found myself dosing throughout all that day and by night.

       Day 7 ive had enough and called one of my freinds who is in recovery and asked him to convince me to flush over 4 grams of meth, he said a prayer and instantly i started balling crying and took one last line and flushed  the rest. once the comedown started to hit me things got interesting,i could only focus on my phone or what i was looking at up close, everything else was distorted. I felt as if i was being fed information from the universe and could not explain any of the things i was being given. This had me in a very obsessive state researching spirituality and wanting to know the truth(i didnt even know what i was wanting to find out) I had talks with other ice users and one in particular told me he did in fact know what im talking about and not to dig deeper. this only made me need to know more and more I was thinking delusuional and it feels like some sort of gate way has opened now for freqencys. i ended up eventually sleeping for 17 hours.

          Today i woke up and that was the first thing on my mind, all of this hidden info. I felt like i knew to much and yet i didnt know what i knew. i popped half a bar... no relief. Im currently on 60mg dextroamphetamine and can barley notice it, my plan was to wean off in 7 days taking one pill a day in the morning but i have taken 2 and they were both decently late 5pm and 830pm. 

          Im feeling better now but i still am very curious of this information and would like to know what this all is and how to acess it. im not obsessed on it persay now just very curious.

         please share if you can relate to this...