stupid Os

knn i know i wasn’t the smartest bunch, i was from ONE OF THE WORST neighbourhood school YOU CAN FIND IN SG BUT I STILL HAD HOPE BEFORE I TOOK MY Os IF I THOUGHT I MUGGED HARDED ENOUGH for context my Sec 3 EOY my l1r4 was at 40 plus. I aimed to go POLY from the beginning of the year and thought i could do so going to putting in efforts. For June Chinese o levels i gotten a D7 which i felt demotivated because i was constantly revising for chinese up till the exam, for context i was a constant f9 mother tongue student i hated the language and couldn’t bare to listen to it but i THUG IT OUT like a SIGMA and yet i still FAILED. then during prelims peroid i was studying 7 hours a day and made minor improvement l1r4 24 and l1r5 31…still i had hope as my humans had gotten an A2. so i had a small glimpse of HOPE after O levels i was relief and hope i would get the fruits of my labour , i even had EAE to a 9 points cut off poly which made me feel more secure…Doomsday came and i was happy at first with my result looking at it A1 History, Physic/Chem A2, E math C6, CHINESE C6 BY SOME MIRACULOUS REASON WHEN I DIDNT STUDY AT ALL FOR THE SECOND PAPER and then they decided to bomb with a FRICKING c5 huamns (ss/lit) WHEN I LITRALLY GOT AN A2 for PRELIMS HOW DID I DROP 3 MARKS for MY HUMANS it was my best subject too by this was what i didn’t care about at first BECAUSE MY ENGLISH HAD GOTTEN A D7 which shattering my eae offer as i needed a c6 JUST BY 1 point my whole tertiary pathway was ruined by 1 STUPID POINT stupid cambridge english alicia hop wood, now im just waiting for JAE being lost and what im going to do with my future because i lost my eae and didn’t anticipate this..i dont even know if i can succeed in whatever poly course i get into because all my choice seem to be only at RP being limited to some courses because of my english stupid cambridge stingy to give 1 more grade UGH