Postpartum Rage Is Taking Over My Life, and I Don’t Know How to Stop It

I've been feeling constantly angry and outraged since my pregnancy, and now, four months postpartum, I still can't control my anger outbursts. I’ve gotten frustrated with almost everyone—my mom, MIL, dad, sisters, husband, aunts—pretty much anyone who tries to get close to me. They do or say something that annoys me, and I snap almost instantly, letting all my emotions out.

Now that my baby is four months old, he’s starting to witness these moments. I never get angry at him, but I do yell at others in front of him. When that happens, he just freezes and stares at me, which worries me even more.

My husband is in a foreign country, and I’m staying with my parents, following our tradition of postpartum recovery at my mom’s place. Even though I get some help, I keep comparing my parents' support to what I expect, and it never feels like enough. My mom also talks about me to everyone—my dad, sisters, aunts—and now they all look at me like I’m losing my mind. On top of that, she doesn’t treat me the same way she treats my sisters, which only adds to my frustration. I feel like I’ve created a bad image for myself, and my mom is making sure everyone knows about it.

I also struggle with hunger. I eat lunch around 2:00 PM, and then there’s nothing until dinner at 10:30 PM. When I ask my mom for something to eat, she usually just gives me a glass of milk or something unappetizing, which makes me even more irritated.

I’m really worried about how people see me and how they treat me. But more than that, I want to get past these emotional outbursts and feel normal again.

Has anyone else experienced something similar? How did you handle it?