my mind keeps telling me I'm lesbian even though i've literally liked men??? (HOCD)

y'all i cannot BEGIN to tell you how much my head hurts. since my gender crisis last year i started questioning my damn sexuality and its getting on my nerves.

i've always thought of myself as a bi girl, but i've been anxiously wondering if i'm just a comphet lesbian who loves male attention.

my peers assume me to be a lesbian because i dress like a hippy and i don't fit the image of a "stereotypical" black girl. but I'm wondering if they're seeing things i don't? i also get triggered by tiktoks of lesbians saying they thought they were bi but it was really comphet.

i do fit some comphet criteria, but one thing is stopping me from saying i'm lesbian: my dumbass has been turned on by men and masculinity MULTIPLE TIMES. I don't think thats a lesbian thing. I remember feeling butterflies and TINGLES from looking into the eyes of a cute guy. literally a couple weeks ago i wanted to make out w my guy friend who was flirting with me. like??

along with that, I've mostly had crushes (unless its actually me liking their attention) on men; I've never had to force a crush on one. yes, i am more sexually attracted to women, but with every else I'm just in love with men.

and yet, my mind still thinks i'm a lesbian. fuck this ocd shit.