Depression,low energy,porn addiction and manipulative daydreaming
It is hard for me to leave my bed I like sleeping even I don't want to I will just force my self to sleep , I can't do anything as everything is hard , I have a job offer but I can't take it I don't have any energy to do anything, I forced my self into courses related to my college and I cant attend or force my self to study even though I paid the savings of 9 months on them , I can't stop daydreaming everyday even when I am with people I even wait for my parents to leave home to walk for hours and daydream in the house and I always daydream about that a girl loves me , the last time I talk to a girl in the college or a girl not including my mom family and that people from 5 December 2022 I barely have friends but the don't love me as I am not an interesting person I am just awkward and I know I am not deserving of love , I started to watch porn since I was 13 and I am 20 now because I don't have friends and it is the way I use to leave the world with the daydreaming, I am in engineering college and I have a gpa of 3.75 which is high , no no I don't study but I force my self to study when I have exams only .what should I do