Should I surrender ?

Nothing goes as I want to no matter what I do . Should I just accept I'm a part of heard and I can't have my ambitions I'm so low and sad and weak ,mentally phisicaly financially . Seems like nietzsche teaching was only theoretical for me . I can't even explain how's my condition now .

I don't need to be harsh on myself and accept it . But the result will be me being week and sad for life . No happyness for me in this life ( But then comes ,I only believe that we have one life the day my heartbeat stops it's done nothing remains ) Some will say I should post this on stoic or motivation and shit , but they are not humans they are robot's and I'm a human a mortal one . I fear I have wasted it all .