Do I look unhealthy?

I’m recovering from an eating disorder and waking up to how I’ve been slowly damaging my body over the last half a year because I was in denial about my appearance getting worse. Also, I have been getting more fluid retention which has been confusing and gives me body dysmorphia. I typically bounced back from poor nutrition as a teen but I feel like my body is struggling more this time in college. My weight is 5 lbs away from where I started now but I look way less healthy. I used to have a “glow” that I am missing now and I’ve had acne for three months which has never been an issue. My hair texture and skin tone is still off. I tried speaking to a professional for my Ed but they aren’t willing to hear appearance related concerns like face muscle loss so I’m coming here. I can’t accept myself if I have looked better before and this is self inflicted. My muscle mass is really low but I have gained fat back to my face which is frustrating.