How can i overcome this?

Hi,

I met a girl in my city 2 months ago, we spend a few days together and we really liked each other.Those days spent like a dream and she went to her country after that.

We are texting everyday since she left, and she opened up to me and i told also i have feelings for her.

Anyway, the situation is complicated.Sometimes i feel like she is distant or whatever but she never admits it.

My problem is, its been 2 months and i’m feeling like years has been passed and the sad part is we have to wait 4 months more because of my job.And another problem is, ticket prices are so high and she is kinda broke, so i should cover her expenses but i dont know how many times more i can do that.

When i look all the situations and details i didnt mentioned about from logical perspective, i say i should leave this girl to myself.But the problem is i feel like i can’t, i don’t want to :/

Actually if she brings up a topic like she loves another guy, i would be heartbroken but relieved 😅