Your one reply could save my life

i am literally getting 20 marks in jee 1. Yes 20. Kal boards hai and I can’t remember shit cuz apparently aj result aa sakta. I’m literally crying in guilt cuz idk what to do. Please tell me how I cope with this.

Also please tell me how much can I expect in VITEEE, MET exams if I just complete class 12 portion? As I’m preparing for MHT CET from 22nd feb (hsc boards)

I just want cse branch in any of the tier 2 colleges as I will try to go persue MS in foreign. I’m in so much guilt that I have wasted 2 years of my life. Im literally crying and I havent cried since so many years. Please help me. I can’t talk to my friends as they probably don’t care and are in same situation as me unke wajah se I’m in this condition. Other students in my society who I thought are boring and no fun and only studying will be scoring more than me. Sabko mujhse jyada ane wale hai.

Bc most probably I also have an AIR in my society from my coaching. I kept hiding the reality and I was being delusional asf. Tbh it was all my fault and I Knew I’d face the consequences some day. Any second a bomb would be dropped on me and us soch se rona ara h

Kal English paper bhi kharab jane wala hai. Never felt this guilt in my life till now. I’m not seeking any validation just tell me what things I should do. After this you’ll never see me on this for next 5 months. Never in my life I’ve felt so sad and guilty.