I’m so sorry, guys

I failed. I couldn’t handle life anymore without a glass of wine. Everything seemed too much, so I relied on my old crutch - alcohol.

A few weeks ago I started feeling the heavy build-up of my problems. I’m getting a divorce and I found out that my husband had been stealing gold and diamond jewelry from me. I was getting wild and frustated over the last months that I kept “loosing” my favourite jewelry. I searched the house. I blamed the kid. Then he took pity on me and told me that he took it and sold it. I was devastated. All I said to him was - please return the money back to me. And he did.

I was utterly humiliated yesterday at work. There’s a very powerful colleague at work who sees me as a threat. I’ve tolerated a lot from her, but yesterday was the ultimate moment when I realized that I have to quit my job. She came into my office to “give me feedback”, and she utterly destroyed me. It didn’t make any sense, I couldn’t understand her logic. She blew things out of proportion. I couldn’t believe this was happening to me, and I started to cry because I felt so sorry for myself and I really wanted to escape but I felt just frozen. While I was crying she stared at me with sadistic pleasure and smiled. She left with saying - just keep your mouth shut and don’t pretend you’re smart. It was truly humiliating.

The natural response is to go and report on her. Trust me, I tried. Nobody believes me, she holds a totally different face to the management, so as fairly fresh at the company I’m considered as the trouble maker.

I don’t know how to handle it, so I went to a restaurant and ordered a glass of wine. I hope you won’t judge me. I want to hop back on the wagon with you again tomorrow. I hope you’ll take me back ❤️