I need some advice

So I’ve been in the BDSM and Ddlg lifestyle for awhile now and I’ve had moment of breaks due to my personal life and other issues. I’ve notice at the age 25 ( I started @19) that things kinda feel At out place like as I matured. I kinda pushed back of the whole lifestyle. l feel like getting back into will be hard as I stated I’m almost done with college as I been busy with my academics and working ( being an adult pretty much ) . I just feel like I’m pushing away a part of me that I just can’t connect to anymore . And I write this post because I found my littlespace gear in the back of my closet and my BDSM gear underneath my bed collecting dust from the storage box . And my question is how l just Want to really connect back into these spaces slowly with everything else or should i really just give it up at this point ?