Roach Anxiety Attack

(Written via speech-to-text, please excuse typos)

Hello friends,

I write this as a cower in fear in the fetal position on my couch. I have lived in New York City for six years, I have had my run-in with roaches occasionally, as is to be expected, but I have never had a full on infestation. I have lived in my current apartment in Brooklyn for a little under a year, and I have never had any pest problems here at all. I left my apartment to travel for work for about a week, and when I returned I began finding little baby roaches all over. Alive. First in the bathroom, then the bedroom, then the living room. I am finding these little nightmares running around in every room of my apartment, even rooms that have no food or water. I saw one crawl out of my Internet router.

Now, I will admit I am a pretty anxious guy. I think I might have some sort of undiagnosed anxiety thing. But I am currently having a complete freak out about this. I sleep with my mattress on the floor, I never got around to getting a bedframe and I never really noticed. Now I can hardly handle the thought of trying to sleep tonight. I sat down in bed in the middle of the day, to try and just take deep breath‘s, and in that exact moment I saw one crawl out from the corner of the table.

An exterminator came yesterday and placed poison gel bait all over the walls and corners of the apartment. However I am still seeing these fuckers running around, have not seen any dead ones yet.

I have work tomorrow. I half to sleep and live here, but I am just freaking out at the thought of these things running around, crawling into my bed, crawling into my things in my clothing. Please help. I don’t know to function like this.