My friends never reach out.

So, I’m in my early 30s. I’m starting to wonder if I have an awful personality, because literally none of the people I have considered friends of mine ever reach out.

I literally have to initiate every conversation or interaction. Some of these people I have know since I was a teenager. If I don’t text them, I wouldn’t hear from them. There is someone I considered a close friend from college. They will respond and plan to do things, but then they will ghost me for weeks/ months on end.

Is this normal? Do people just not reach out to their “friends” after a certain age? Would you still attempt to cultivate these relationships or simply move on?

I know it’s petty, but I’ve decided that I’m completely cutting off the one “friend” who will literally leave me on read for months. It feels pretty awful to feel like you’re being punished for trying to be a friend.

How do I know if some aspect of my personality drives people away, or if these relationships were just never solid to begin with?