Repping/detrans advice needed

I’m trying to detransition but I really can’t, every time I try to skip an injection I suddenly can’t breathe and panic until I inject, but I really want to stop because I’m a strong man who’s going to end the family line if he transitions. I love being a man because I would be a hon anyways, plus I’m 14 months on good doses and I don’t pass so in order to not feel suicidal anymore I’m going to embrace my manhood by cutting off my hair, top surgery, and stopping injections. But how do I stop injecting?? I get a panic attack every time I try so I keep injecting every week and I can’t stop please help me

• midshit gigabrickhon w/ ogre hands